Despair....

"I have suffered Your terrors and arm in despair

Your wrath had swept over me,

Your terrors have destroyed me.

You have taken my campanions and loved ones from me

the darkness is my closest friend"

(w 15c - 16. 18. emphasis mine)

Cute, Hot, Cool.....that's what people say to all the popular people around us, the populars if they may label them are so vain that they would not even give a second glance to anyone who them is worthless....you know what this pain seems ordinary to some people but to people like me the pain is enough, cries are of no use no more the tears of sadness are just ways of lying that people only to be heard, I can't cry no more for the drop of blood you may see is much better than looking at droplets of water that you oh so called tears.

You see tears resemble love, but don't you know love is pain, when you love so much and you get hurt isn't that already equal to pain, love created pain so never compare love to pain for love is the bringer of pain, for whenever there is light there is always darkness for light has created it.

I have already had enough with despair for the friends and family you thinl has love for you is just a lie, my so called friends just need me when they have something they need to do, my family they all only give me work even if something is in need of requiring they only want me not to do it, and the person I like well this person has been written by vanity so why bother.

I've had enough of companions they are all backstabbers, you know my so called friends just left me not even telling me where they were going, they see me only as a freak, a loser, a nobody, in other words I'm just a shadow so why bother the darkness is my only friend what use is that of the light when it wasthe ont to give me despair.

The warmth of my heart has now become into a blue fire, the mask I have used has now been broken, I am invisible, I am a nobody, I am worthless.......but life is still precious, my companions may have left me but I smeel the blood I want to spend....

To those who think the life of others is useless your wrong for this life can be used to destroy those who have brought pain and despair, the light may cover the darkness but the darkness can overshadow the light, despair is a key to a persons insanity why not use it in means more dreadful than death....

I despise those who think of my worthlessness, I have already tried unmeasureable means to gain friendship but all were dropped why bother with companions when my companions are darkness, despair, death and blood.

Save me from this despair for you might not know you may not see or hear me anymore.......